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15 Years – I Haven’t Forgotten


I think it was last week when it hit me that it’s been 15 years since the 9/11/01 terrorist attacks. It still seems like it was yesterday. But yet I also still remember what it was like pre-9/11 – when we weren’t always on high-alert. When I didn’t have to fight through a million what if scenarios in my head whenever I traveled.

I remember when people would talk about the United States and how no one would dare attack us on our own soil. I remember thinking how arrogant that was, and I knew it was going to happen eventually.

I don’t have the seething anger I did in the first 10 years. I don’t have the fear I used to have either.

I’m not saying I’m not still angry. I am still angry over the senseless loss of life of the innocent civilians over a twisted extreme religious ideology.

I spent a lot of time in the weeks immediately following 9/11 reading a lot of intelligence reports. Well, many of us did. I absolutely scared the living shit out myself doing that. That’s how I learned that just because you CAN read intel doesn’t necessarily mean you should. I decided that I didn’t need to know what I was consuming. I no longer have the fear I did. Not because I don’t read intel, but because I can’t stay on high-alert 24/7. If I’m constantly on guard watching all around me for danger, I am missing being in the moment. I’m not really living, but simply surviving as a control-freak – as if I can control everything going on around me. I’m no longer willing to be a slave to my fear.

If I live in fear, the terrorists win.

The world changed September 11, 2001, and I along with it. I will never forget.

Here’s the post from 2005 that I reposted 2009:

9/11 – Repost

And the one from 2013:


“Teenage wasteland…”

This was supposed to be for Facebook, but after looking at these, I thought a blog post would be best to display this boxful of fail:

Click on the image to see the full pic. First thing that stood out to me is I was a nerd. Second, I was a nerd who wanted to be a party girl and give the impression that I was easy (which I was not, btw). At least the Jesus button isn’t the smallest one. I look at that collection and see FAIL. Boundries crossed, nonexsistent, and just totally wrong focus which is again a reference to the one small Jesus button. No wonder I failed at not drinking, among other fails. I didn’t take those boundries seriously AT ALL.

History Lesson

I got one today from Reverend Wayne Perryman via Flopping Aces.