Today is day 13 of my “radical” diet. Day 4, I wanted to die. Yesterday, all of my self-control was tested when I had to go buy a new can opener because the one I brought to work wouldn’t even poke a hole in the lid of the can of tuna I planned to eat. To get to Walmart, I had to drive past a LOT of fast food, and I wanted a burger BAD! First thing I smelled when I got out of the car at Walmart was fried food from the deli. I want to add that I also did not find plain tuna at all appealing. It needed either Miracle Whip or the sleeve of Ritz crackers I found in my desk that I gave to the guy next to me in the office with the instruction “Get these away from me!” Of course, he ate them in front of me later on.

So how is it going? I have lost 5 pounds so far. I lost 4 pounds the first 2 days, and (TMI ALERT) I’m pretty sure I lost that in poop. Yeah, and I’ve been pooping like 2-3 times a day which is VERY unusual. Either a) I wasn’t getting enough fiber, b) something was stopping me up, or c) both a & b. So after the 4 pound loss, I gained back a pound, but dropped back 2. Yeah, I know, “Don’t weigh every day.” Whatever. I want to know the exact day I drop below 200. I’ll celebrate with a bacon cheeseburger. hahaha Kidding.

I have noticed this week, that I’m not having the extreme mood swings, as if I have leveled off. Now, that might not be because of the diet. High stress events are always followed by panic attacks, and then depression before I level out. But, either way, I haven’t broken down into a sobbing mess all week. I did get snippy with the other music leaders last Sunday morning in practice, and then turned right around and did what I snipped at them for myself…live…opening song. Ok, that’s getting off topic.

I have to say. I am so sick of eating salad at lunch I could scream. I made a stirfry the other night from stuff I just threw together. It smelled sooooo good while it was cooking, and tasted sooooo good that night. I was so happy to have the leftovers for lunch the next day, and, yeah, it sucked warmed over. I steamed some turnip greens and kale, and they smelled awesome while cooking, and tasted ok, but really needed cornbread. lol Why does everything taste better with cornbread?