You got this!

I nearly talked myself out of running last night. I totally did not want to do it, but I hadn’t run since Friday night, and figured my hip had recovered enough. The humidity was awful, and it is probably a good thing I used my inhaler first otherwise I might have quit the many times I wanted to.

Someone stopped and asked me for directions while I was running. You know why? Because I also hadn’t shaved my legs since Friday. Fail.

Anyway, last night was tougher mentally than physically. I was barely done with one “lap” before I wanted to quit. I was slow, and my legs felt like they weren’t going to hold me up. I kept telling myself, “You got this! You can do this! You’ve done it before. You’ve run farther. It’s only a 5K, and you aren’t doing it for time tonight! KEEP MOVING!” Even if I hadn’t had to stop long enough to give that lady directions, my time would have been bad. It was one of those runs. The quitter runs. The ones that have always defeated me.

Not this time.

I am determined to run the timed virtual 5K tomorrow night, and push myself for a good time. I am determined to run my butt off in a “live” 5k 4th of July, and another virtual July 21. I am determined to run a 10k followed by an 8k the following weekend in Aug/Sep. I am determined to run a half marathon in November.

And I think I am going to attempt a full marathon next year.

Unless the half sucks so bad I swear off running that far ever again. LOL

And yes, I finished the run last night, and woke up just after 3am with killer cramps in my calves. It was enough that I eventually had to get up and walk it out because rotating my ankle wasn’t calming down the right leg.

6 Responses to 'You got this!'

  1. Sometimes you have to tell that voice to shut up, we all hear that voice with various things we struggle with. It’s nice to hear that you’re not giving in, since that just makes it easier to cave next time. Keep up the posts it inspires me to tell my bread cravings to shut up! 😉 I haven’t had any in quite a while, but I still get the cravings occasionally.

    Totally off topic, but what emoticons do you use. I remember using similar emoticons during my Vegan Momma days.

    • DragonLady says:

      It’s hard for me not to cave, I won’t lie. 😉 I was offered muffins this morning by one of the new guys. He had forgotten. lol But he did chuckle when I found out they were banana muffins and I fake sobbed. lol

      I use a plugin called Custom Smilies http://wordpress.org/extend/plugins/custom-smilies/
      Some of the smilies came with it, and some I found here and there on the web and added to it. 🙂

  2. I am so proud of you! You did it! I always knew you could!!!!!!! You can do this and you will – you have found the inner motivation that comes out when you need it! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

  3. Teeni says:

    Glad you didn’t give up. That is exactly why I don’t listen to me sometimes. I always talk myself out of things. Wasn’t even sure I would get those little piggies finished and that was such a small thing. But you inspire me and you are already doing so much more running than I think I ever could. Keep it up. Oh, and don’t forget to shave your legs before the next run. 🙂

    • DragonLady says:

      Last night was a different story…and my legs were clean shaven. lol

      Now if I can just force myself through tonight’s 5k for time…in the humid heat… :sweat: