“Like I always do”
Insanity is often defined as doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results. Been there done that. Still do it. But some other things have occurred to me lately that expand on that. One glaring thing has been my obsessive need to control everyone and everything around me in an attempt to maintain my protective comfort zone bubble. That bubble burst last summer, and I have to remind myself sometimes every few minutes that I can't put it back together. Nor should I even try. Another aspect of that is perfectionism. Or better yet, perfectionism on top of thinking you can and/or have to do everything. That's another bubble of mine that burst last summer and almost got me and Jamie arrested. Ok, that's an exaggeration. (Why must I look up that word to spell it correctly? Every.Single.Time?) It would just have been a ticket. And I should tell that story sometime. Anyway, point is, it is not weakness to need help. You can't do everything, and you can't do everything perfectly.