“Why do we want what we know we can’t have…”

2 or 3 weeks ago the hubby came back from his doctor’s appointment, and first announced that his liver is fine (YaY!), but then said, “The doctor said to tell you to make an appointment with him asap.” Uh…ok? “You talked about me didn’t you?!” Well, of course he did. So, I made an appointment, had blood drawn last week, and follow up today. For not being a physical, this came close, and there was a LOT addressed.

1. His scales weigh a full 10 pounds heavier than mine. :wail:

2. My blood pressure was 110/80. That is the lowest my systolic (1st number) has been in YEARS. :party2:

3. All my blood work was fine. Specifically glucose is normal (I am “at risk” for diabetes – hereditary). Cholesterol is high, but not alarmingly high. We both knew that would be high, we both know why it’s high, we both know how it’s going to lower, and my good cholesterol is real good. Liver is good. Vitamin D is low, but I forget to take my vitamins. :dunno:

So with that all out of the way, we began to chat about my issues. I have a sinus infection. Which I knew, and that manifested itself after I made the appointments. He put me on antibiotics for 2 weeks to kill it off, and told me to take a probiotic along with it to replace the good bacteria in my digestive system that will be collateral damage. He also is putting me back on a nasal steroid since it seems my nasal polyp(s) is back. I’ll take the Flonase for 6 months or so and see if there is a reversal of the sinus issues. If not, he will refer me to an ENT for the polyp, which really means I will have to go to the VA since that is a “service-related” (and documented) problem. He gave me another prescription for albuterol (for asthma), and told me to try using a dose before I run to counter that whole wheezing thing my daughter says I do. Who knows, maybe that really is why I couldn’t ever distance run – asthma. :dunno:

We talked about weight next, but I’m going to go straight for the female issues first. I told him about the bouncing emotions from real low to real high and many points in between. We talked about my irregular periods, and he said “Since you are still having periods, it’s not menopause.” :sigh: But most of those issues will wait until the gyn appointment I have to make next which won’t be made until my next period which who knows if that will come in a week or a month. He isn’t concerned about overall hormone levels, but thinks that my ovaries might be out of sync. But it might also be part of the cycle of stress and diet. Worst case scenario will have me on birth control for a few months to get me back “regular.” :whatever:

Again, out of order, but I told him about how my hair is coming out, not in clumps, but certainly in large amounts when I wash it and brush it. He hadn’t checked thyroid, but would see if they still had my blood (they keep it at the lab for a week) to test that. I told him I have a cousin who has had thyroid issue (though I didn’t add that she said her hair was coming out in clumps), and that one of my AF doctors kept an eye on my thyroid because it ran to the low end of normal.

Ah, the weight. I told him about the exercise and that I have been really watching my portion control and eating less because I know I binge eat. I also told him I wasn’t looking to have had drastic weight loss over the past few weeks especially since I know muscle weighs more than fat, but even at that I should see a loss of fat somewhere. I thought I had lost some boob (that will be the first to go since it was the last I gained), but the girls seemed back to their “normal” size today. Finally I let him know that I had fully conceded that pasta was my biggest problem, and I know I have to completely cut it – at least for a while. Well, then he lowered the boom. It’s not just the pasta…it’s ALL the starches. :timeout: Wait, WHAT????? That’s not just pasta, that’s potatoes, and breads, and BREADS?? Biscuits? Cornbread?? You know what else that means? No GRAVY! :wail: Then he went in for the kill. Starches produce a good emotional feeling which is why I run to them for comfort…just like smoking. (I think James told him about my pipe.) The last couple of years have been pretty stressful between work issues and family issues. The stress causes me to seek out comfort, which I do in food, and starches are my quick fixes since I don’t smoke cigarettes anymore. I’ve been treating food like a drug…getting “high” off of mac & cheese. (That last sentence was me finally fully digesting the issue.)

So then he tied everything in together. The emotional bouncing, the weight, the irregular periods might all be a product of starchy, fried food diet. “Are you will to try a radical diet?” He asked me that and I was pretty sure didn’t mean this Radical, and then thought, “I’m going to have to eat like Petra.” Not to imply that is a bad thing. I had already been considering it. Thankfully, I love fruits and vegetables. I also love bacon, but he told me only lean meats, and not fried. Yeah, fried is may favorite food group. Starches are second. :cheesy: So that leaves me with tuna and turkey. I really am not too fond of the lean cuts of beef. I can have pork chops as long as I cut off the fat and grill ’em.

All I gotta do is stop loving starches more than I hate being fat. I’m sure gonna miss my mac & cheese…. :sigh:

8 Responses to '“Why do we want what we know we can’t have…”'

  1. Funny thing is I did start eating like Petra….it sucked the first like week and a half, but after I felt so much ebtter – Nick didn’t like the cost of it, but he felt better to. You will love it. I promise!

    • DragonLady says:

      Oh, James won’t do it with me. Which is fine, except I will have to cook all my own food which while smelling his deep-fried chicken and fries. ;)

      • Petra says:

        I started off making separate meals, but now they just eat what I eat. If I make GF pizza, then Andy will bring home Little Ceasar’s, but mostly, they have learned to love the organic gluten-free stuff! ;)

        • DragonLady says:

          James is the primary cook (because we are the backwards family – lol), so that’s on him. He doesn’t properly retain anything I tell him about how I want stuff cooked, so he can have his meat and potatoes and let me cook my own stuff. He eats on an odd schedule too. Or I do. That’s up for debate. lol

  2. Petra says:

    Oh man. Yeah – did you know that if you have a gluten intolerance that it can cause asthma and hair loss? Just saying. The only cure is to not eat gluten. It can also cause you to not be able to gain or lose weight (I used to not be able to gain any weight and people always thought I was anorexic even though I ate everything in sight at all hours of the day). Can you have rice? If so, then all is not lost and you can eat rice pasta! Although, rice is a starch. Brown rice?? My diet isn’t that bad… Oh, uh, if it’s a thyroid issue? The best natural cure for that one is a no-sugar diet. I don’t think I could handle that. Especially a combo of no gluten and no sugar! lol. You will go through withdrawals and will feel worse before you feel better — just like getting rid of a drug addiction. I seriously went through the shakes and sweats and cravings and it was AWFUL and I almost gave in… but by the 3rd week I started feeling better than I had felt in my entire life! (I had withdrawals after I gave up MSG, but didn’t feel as good as I did after giving up gluten… that’s when I felt better than ever. I kept the MSG out though when I realized how addictive it was). Okay, I could ramble on about this all day since I know alot about it – but we’ll talk. You can do this!!!! :)

    • DragonLady says:

      He was pointing me towards no sugar. I can’t remember what he said about rice. Gosh, there is just so much I am overloading and might have to take a nap! LOL

      I’ve always had asthma, but it wasn’t diagnosed until after we PCS’ed to the UK and I started having pretty bad attacks. I was allergy tested there and tested positive for 5 of the 8 molds. So it is primarily allergy-triggered. But my high school bff’s mom loves to talk about how I could eat more than any girl she had ever seen yet not gain an ounce. I didn’t really gain much at all until I was pregnant, but with both kids, I lost the weight by the time my 6 wks of maternity leave were up. I didn’t start to gain weight until I quit smoking cigarettes, and replaced the smokes with food.

      And the doctor warned me I was going to feel horrible and even be depressed for probably a couple weeks. :eek:

  3. MacBros says:

    Againg sucks, that’s all I have to say about that. :tappity: